[ She hasn't stopped long enough to even consider how any of that might sound to him. The moment she had her revelation, all she cared about was feeling him inside of her and it's very obvious that she's not given it a second thought once she'd given voice to those words. She was far too caught up in the moment, in him to even think about how little any of that would make sense to somebody who hadn't experienced much of 21st century Earth.
It's feeling him still above her that forces her to fully focus on him, confusion beginning to stir in her gaze because while he's barreling down an emotional path of a very different making, she's still hung up on the fact that she's just given him the go ahead to continue and yet he's inexplicably not pushing inside of her.
It's his touch that gives her pause, the way he cups her cheek and the emotion that greets her as her gaze locks on his. Kenzi managing to peel herself back from the edge, even as her body screams its silent protest at her and while it would have been very easy for her to flippantly reassure him and continue? She can read him well enough in that moment to actually want to take this seriously. (Will Save 30 + Sense Motive 49).
She pulls in a slow, shaky breath. Shifting just enough beneath him to dial back the immediacy of their mutual need and she can feel herself leaning into his touch as she brushes her cheek to his palm and the hand that was trying desperately to pull him closer now flattens against his side. she doesn't need him to explain everything behind what she sees in his eyes, she knows enough to be able draw some conclusions but what helps her understand it, perhaps better than most is her own experiences growing up the way she did. ]
If... I didn't know, there were a way to make sure that it was.. safe? [ Clearly not sure how to have this conversation seriously but trying her best to give it the weight it deserves. ] Then I would say no. [ She's not sure. ] Not...Because of you -
[ This feels, utterly awkward, mostly due to the fact that she just doesn't know how to express herself on this. She's laying here with him, her body still painfully eager to move forward but this has suddenly become about more than just assuring him that they have a pill for everything. ]
Look I - I know what it's like to be the kid that nobody wanted. [ And she suspected he understood it on some level. He had made it clear, it was just him and his Mom growing up. ] And lets be real here, I would be a terrible parent...
[ The huff of laughter she injects into those words sounding forced as she fumbles around blindly with this conversation. ]
Look, we don't have to - but, there is a pill... one... I will need to take either way because... i am an idiot - [ Don't even argue with her Peter, the stream of awkwardly strung together crap that has left her mouth in the last 2 minutes will never convince her otherwise. ] Just... so you know.
[ How did it go from so hot to so overwhelmingly emotionally complicated so fast? ]
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It's feeling him still above her that forces her to fully focus on him, confusion beginning to stir in her gaze because while he's barreling down an emotional path of a very different making, she's still hung up on the fact that she's just given him the go ahead to continue and yet he's inexplicably not pushing inside of her.
It's his touch that gives her pause, the way he cups her cheek and the emotion that greets her as her gaze locks on his. Kenzi managing to peel herself back from the edge, even as her body screams its silent protest at her and while it would have been very easy for her to flippantly reassure him and continue? She can read him well enough in that moment to actually want to take this seriously. (Will Save 30 + Sense Motive 49).
She pulls in a slow, shaky breath. Shifting just enough beneath him to dial back the immediacy of their mutual need and she can feel herself leaning into his touch as she brushes her cheek to his palm and the hand that was trying desperately to pull him closer now flattens against his side. she doesn't need him to explain everything behind what she sees in his eyes, she knows enough to be able draw some conclusions but what helps her understand it, perhaps better than most is her own experiences growing up the way she did. ]
If... I didn't know, there were a way to make sure that it was.. safe? [ Clearly not sure how to have this conversation seriously but trying her best to give it the weight it deserves. ] Then I would say no. [ She's not sure. ] Not...Because of you -
[ This feels, utterly awkward, mostly due to the fact that she just doesn't know how to express herself on this. She's laying here with him, her body still painfully eager to move forward but this has suddenly become about more than just assuring him that they have a pill for everything. ]
Look I - I know what it's like to be the kid that nobody wanted. [ And she suspected he understood it on some level. He had made it clear, it was just him and his Mom growing up. ] And lets be real here, I would be a terrible parent...
[ The huff of laughter she injects into those words sounding forced as she fumbles around blindly with this conversation. ]
Look, we don't have to - but, there is a pill... one... I will need to take either way because... i am an idiot - [ Don't even argue with her Peter, the stream of awkwardly strung together crap that has left her mouth in the last 2 minutes will never convince her otherwise. ] Just... so you know.
[ How did it go from so hot to so overwhelmingly emotionally complicated so fast? ]