[When the video feed switches on in the backstage area, Des is still whooping and hollering and egging Spike on, but the second he sees Jade on the screen, he doubletakes and pauses to observe the situation with knitted brows.
Seconds later, the makeshift whip hits the floor and he forgets he's in the middle of a combat situation. It's not like it matters. It's not like he can actually die.
But she can.
They'll tell you a lot of things about immortality, but it never gets easier watching people die. And that's why he doesn't bother getting close to people, because it's worse when he pulls some stupid stunt and other people get hurt if it's people he actually knows and also because of this. Because he always ends up here.
And all he can think is if Rafael hadn't done what he did- if he'd left well enough alone, let her stay in that dreamworld... She would still be alive. Suddenly, Des's mixed emotions on the subject come rushing back, because yes, it was cruel to leave her stuck in a half-life, but she would have lived.
He's so dumbstruck by the sight of Jade dying in surround sound and HD, he can't even move. That's it. That's his round. Round lost to manpain.
...But at least Archer shooting Ben Affleck shakes him out of his trauma a bit. Too little, too late, Des. YOUR SIX SECONDS ARE UP.]
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Seconds later, the makeshift whip hits the floor and he forgets he's in the middle of a combat situation. It's not like it matters. It's not like he can actually die.
But she can.
They'll tell you a lot of things about immortality, but it never gets easier watching people die. And that's why he doesn't bother getting close to people, because it's worse when he pulls some stupid stunt and other people get hurt if it's people he actually knows and also because of this. Because he always ends up here.
And all he can think is if Rafael hadn't done what he did- if he'd left well enough alone, let her stay in that dreamworld... She would still be alive. Suddenly, Des's mixed emotions on the subject come rushing back, because yes, it was cruel to leave her stuck in a half-life, but she would have lived.
He's so dumbstruck by the sight of Jade dying in surround sound and HD, he can't even move. That's it. That's his round. Round lost to manpain.
...But at least Archer shooting Ben Affleck shakes him out of his trauma a bit. Too little, too late, Des. YOUR SIX SECONDS ARE UP.]