the problem is this magic. she can remember, clearly, the warning maude had given her before she'd departed to her knight's training: heal. heal to make up for all that blood she'd shed as a knight, because it would never be enough, but by god she had a gift and she had to use it like any of her others.
but it scares her. she's seen what magic can do, seen the way it corrupted duke roger and what a monster he was in the way he used it, and having it inside of her alone is enough to make her skin itch.
and yet, every time a mission party returns, the first place she goes is the infirmary to change bandages and make use of the skills learned down in the river drell during the scanran war. and, if it's bad enough, to let purple tendrils of energy flow into them and pour her own energy through magic into them and repair the damage. it's rarely bad enough. it had taken until jon was on his deathbed for the sweating sickness to draw her magic out of her, and it would take precisely that much to draw it out of her now.
which was precisely why she dodged the infirmary and dodged other members of the dragon's light lest she be dragged into training to make use of her undeniable gifts.
and her biggest problem is that she's not particularly subtle in how she avoids. ]
alanna | ota
the problem is this magic. she can remember, clearly, the warning maude had given her before she'd departed to her knight's training: heal. heal to make up for all that blood she'd shed as a knight, because it would never be enough, but by god she had a gift and she had to use it like any of her others.
but it scares her. she's seen what magic can do, seen the way it corrupted duke roger and what a monster he was in the way he used it, and having it inside of her alone is enough to make her skin itch.
and yet, every time a mission party returns, the first place she goes is the infirmary to change bandages and make use of the skills learned down in the river drell during the scanran war. and, if it's bad enough, to let purple tendrils of energy flow into them and pour her own energy through magic into them and repair the damage. it's rarely bad enough. it had taken until jon was on his deathbed for the sweating sickness to draw her magic out of her, and it would take precisely that much to draw it out of her now.
which was precisely why she dodged the infirmary and dodged other members of the dragon's light lest she be dragged into training to make use of her undeniable gifts.
and her biggest problem is that she's not particularly subtle in how she avoids. ]