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♬ Right Where It Belongs - Nine Inch Nails

WHO || Buffy, Spike, Finnick, Myri, Dawn, Archer, Elena, Kat, Gar, Mark, Isabella, Burt, Des, Rafael, Violet, Francesca, Luthir. [closed]
WHAT || The events directly following the day of Jade's death
WHERE ||Various, Chicago
WHEN || July 5th, 2013 to the funeral
HOW || Actionspam

[ Following a long night after returning from the hospital where Jade finally passed away, there remains a lot to be said and done.

As Burt struggles to deal with the legal side of things, Francesca begins to head that way across the ocean in order to help the Knights do the same, and to help Finnick leave his celebrity life behind somehow. Violet takes the full weight of responsibility for planning the funeral into her hands, and the others continue to try to cope with what's occurred, and slowly put the pieces of information that they have together.

But many of them are still reeling from the revelations of the last few days, or carrying their own emotional burdens. Des continues to keep the truth about Jade's last words to himself as he deals with losing a woman he'd come to love, and faces up to a now uncertain future, thanks to a deal struck with Iscariot. Myri worries deeply about the potential fate of Violet, who's been considering hunting down Keijen Blade on her own, and her concern causes another small rift in her relationship with Finnick. Buffy finally reaches a point of breaking down over her conflicted feelings for Rafael, as Elena assists Archer in completing a giant fireworks bomb for reasons unknown.

This log covers the events leading up to the funeral, which means it will most likely cover a day or two or three. We will use it to make threads for any and all events occurring during this time. ]

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[The spat at the hospital had worn her nerves thin, so much so that she had been unable to sleep. But that unrest had lead her to Buffy's room (and later to see Elena and Archer, but that was another matter entirely). It was something Buffy said that struck a chord with Myri, and when she came back to bed, she simply curls up beside him and tries to collect her thoughts.

She dozes in an out of a light sleep, and it's still very early in the morning when she places a hand on his shoulder and speaks to try to wake him.]

Finnick? [Perhaps waking a person up to apologize isn't the right foot to start out on, but it's been troubling her heart all night long. She's still new to this love thing- give her a break.] I need to talk to you about something.

[ ♬ guess it may - rosie thomas ]

[this time he was more alert after being awoken, which can probably be attributed to all the sleep he had after the hospital trip. he was so drained and exhausted he felt like he could do nothing but sleep today, too, honestly. as soon as she says "we need to talk", he sits the fuck up (obviously fearing the worst.)]

What? What's wrong?

[His alarm surprises her and she jumps back slightly when he moves to sit up, pulling herself more upright as well.]

Wrong? No- No... nothing's wrong, I just... I wanted to apologize. For yesterday.

[no one wants to hear a variant of we need to talk, ok!!!! he reaches up to scrub his hand over his face, only to realize his fingers are still tangled up in a shoelace that he was using to tie knots with the night before. so he pauses to pull that off first.]

No, it's — it's all right. [bluff 6. ouch.]

[Sense motive 21. Stop that.]

No, it's not. [She reaches out and helps him untangle the shoelace from his fingers, her fingers more nimble than one might imagine for this early in the morning (dex 17).] I shouldn't have... [She sighs because the matter of the actual fight still twists her up inside. Her concern for Violet is still valid, in her eyes.]

We won't always agree about these things. I see that now, but perhaps it's better that way. If it weren't for that, you might not have pulled me out of the room like you did. I get too caught up in things. Sometimes it's hard to think clearly when it comes to the people I love.

I know, and I love how deeply you care about other people.

[he looks down at his lap, fighting the urge to fiddle around with the shoelace now that his hand is free again.]

But I felt like you might resent me for doing that. But I couldn't just stand by and let you do something like that to yourself after you told everyone what could possibly happen. You can't expect me to do that.

In the moment, perhaps I did. [She says honestly, knowing that it all has to be left out on the table.] But it's hard for me to explain what it's like for me. My gift draws me towards people in need. It doesn't matter if I've known them for years or minutes, if the damage is dire, there is something in me that needs to seek it out, to try to repair it.

When you grabbed me, pulled me out of there, it felt like being ripped away from the one thing I needed to do. It didn't hurt... I don't want you to think that. But so long as she was alive, that part of me was focused only on trying to save her.

[She reaches out to take his hand in hers.] I know what you did, you did to protect me. And for that, I am grateful... it's the reason that I told you to begin with. I know that so long as I have you, you won't let me go too far, but...

[She hesitates, because this was meant to be simply an apology. But she has her own concerns, and perhaps now is as good a time as any to address them.]

I need to know that you won't simply refuse to let me heal. [He's larger than her, stronger, and if he wanted, he could simply cart her off any time she tried to work her healing magic.]

It's hard for me to understand, because there's nothing like that where I'm from. There's no such thing as magic and all that. [he takes her hand, squeezing it gently.] You have to be patient with me. I wouldn't stop you from healing people, I could never. But I don't want you to martyr yourself, either.

I wouldn't-! [She starts to protest, not quite sure how he could think that she would ever want to harm herself. But hadn't she wondered if they might all be better off if she could have saved Jade, no matter the cost? It wasn't something she wanted to discuss with him. It would only make him worry more.]

I've always been careful, and I don't plan on stopping. I want to help you understand, because... his is such a large part of who I am. [Part of her believes it is all of who she is, or at least all of her that's useful.] Of course I'll be patient. So much has happened that you couldn't possibly... [She trails off and gives him a pleading look.] I only hope that you'll want to learn.

[DAMN RIGHT THAT WONDERING IS EXACTLY WHY HE WORRIES, GURL. and he didn't exactly consider you careful back there, but he would rather avoid another argument right now ......]

I know, and I love that about you. Never doubt that. I love all of you completely, just like you love all of me. [he looks down at their hands, then back up at her.] We both have to work on understanding each other.

[he pauses before speaking again, as he tries to get what he wants to say just right.] I know that I'm not always a good person. Sometimes I may do things that seem cold to you, or things that you don't understand, but that's part of me. I need you to understand that.

It's inevitable that we're not going to see eye to eye on some things, but that could never change how I feel about you.

[She starts to tell him that he isn't cold, that he could never be, but she stops. Hadn't she thought something similar when he asked her to leave the concert, to leave their friends to fend for themselves? She also drops her gaze to their hands, her fingers tightening just slightly.]

I have never doubted that, how you feel about me. Of all the things that I know, that is the most certain. [Her gaze raises, a smile trying to form.] That's why I... I needed to talk to you, to make sure that you knew that. You've been so wonderful to me, and I'm realizing how lucky I am. [Despite the fact that this conversation is actually geared towards the happy side, Myri can't help getting a little emotional and her eyes start to water.]

[he pulls her close against his chest, and then down so that they're lying down again. in actuality it hasn't been that long since they laid close together like this, but with all that's happened in the span of a couple days, it feels like years.]

Hey, hey. Don't cry. I know you do. [his mind churns as he tries to figure out some way to rehash what he talked about with francesca (not the sex slave part ok) to her without making it seem like he didn't lie earlier. WHICH HE DIDN'T things just ... happened. he came to the edge.]

I called the castle and said I didn't want to be a celebrity anymore. I'm not sure how that's going to be cleaned up, but if it forces me to leave, I want you to know.

[She moves with him easily, not resisting at all as he pulls her back down with him. Her arm wraps around his torso as she takes a few calming breaths to keep her tears at bay. By the time he's done speaking, she's gotten it under control and turns up her face to him.]

If I can do anything to help, I want to. [If she had known before how uncomfortable the whole situation made him, she would have offered so long ago, but now she just wants to make up for lost time.] And nothing's changed from the other night. If you need to go, if that's the next step, then I'm going with you.

[he hadn't realized how uncomfortable he'd really been before it all came to a head, tbh. then the impact hit him like a freight train and sent him reeling. he was like a little kid who gets hurt and doesn't start crying until someone asks if they're okay.]

You're already doing more than you know. I don't exactly want to go — everyone here is like family to me. But I know that it could happen, so ... there's not really any choice but to accept it, is there?

For now, no. We'll have to sort out what's to be done to untangle you from Nova. If that means leaving and returning to the castle for the time being, then we will. Once things have settled, we can address if we can return to the group. [She pauses for a beat.] If you want to.

I do. [he sighs, thoughtful.] But I wonder how much longer we're going to be a group. The mission can't last forever. We're all bound to go our separate ways sooner or later. Probably sooner at this point.

[she frowns, knowing that he's right but not sure if she wants to think about that with everything else going on. She's been with this group from the beginning. It's the only mission Wynn ever asked her to be a part of. Somehow she was able to push the thought out of her mind, but... It would happen one day. It had to, right?]

Perhaps. [Her mind wanders to wonder if there would come a time when Wynn would send them on separate paths. This mission had taken so long, so what if the next was the same, and what if he only wished for one of them to go? She couldn't control all aspects of it and fear crept into her chest.]

But today is not that day. Tomorrow might not be either. I would rather enjoy our time together than fear the time apart.

Then let's do that. [he pulls her a little closer, nestling his head into the crook of her neck.] Maybe it's better not to think about it, anyway.

[As he leans into her, she moves as well, resting her cheek on the top of his head and letting her eyes fall closed briefly to just enjoy the closeness.]

I'm sure when it comes, it'll be all we think of. But there's no way to prepare to say goodbye.

[And given the circumstances surrounding their current situation, it's hard not to let that statement cause the mind to drift to a more permanent sort of farewell. This is a morning of too many feelings.]

[he closes his eyes, and tries half-heartedly to fight the urge to go back to sleep.] There's never enough time for any of it. We always think we'll have so much time, but there's never enough.

Promise me that we won't waste it, then. [She says quietly, almost fearful.]

Of course. I promise. [yep he's just ... slowly going back to sleep ...]

[Satisfied with that for now, she relaxes and nestles in against him, content to hold him as he drifts back off to sleep. She won't do much more than doze in and out for now, but she's in no rush to leave this bed just yet.

Eventually she'll slip away, carefully and quietly, leaving him to sleep while she goes to see what to make of her day.]

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