She-- [ a beat ] I do not know. Things did not go as I thought they would. [ he still sounds surprised, like he's trying to sort of what happened and how to feel about it ] I knew she must be angry when she learned there was something about... Nadia that I had kept from her. I thought it best to speak to her immediately about it when I had the chance. [ he grimaces at the thought, as that's clearly not a conversation he ever wanted to rehash ] Instead, she--