chicago ♔ it’s a tragedy to be left only with memories

[savemyself]

WHO || Failboat and friends [Closed]
WHAT || As the trial drags on, the Knights spend their last few months in Chicago and tensions mount
WHERE || Various locations, Chicago
WHEN || November 21st - The end of the trial?? [Back AND Forward dated]
HOW || Actionspam, don't sweat tag order


Everybody loves a media circus and the trial of Rafael Giovanni is no exception. If he was famous before, in the days following the shooting, now he's all people are talking about, and all the tabloids want to focus on. The complications presented at some of the early hearings by Jaka, regarding the identity of the Black Scourge and Rafael's alleged reaction have only made the story more appealing to the millions watching.

They've also caused the trial to drag out for months as facts are checked, evidence is poured over, and the jury becomes only more split on the issue. In the meantime, the holidays fly by, and one of the most terrible winters in years blankets Chicago in blizzards.

This log covers any work and non-work related shenanigans the Knights have while staying in Chicago, immediately following the last log and continuing for the next couple months. This will be the Knight's last time in Chicago before the trial: after which they plan to return to the castle to fully Knight Violet and Elena and decide where to head next.

Make your own threads, don't fuss about tag order, feel free to threadjack multiple people into one thread for hang-outs, ask me if you want a certain scene with an NPC, etc. forever whatever.

Comments

[witchwoman]

Thank you. I thought it was time to become myself again. [To be honest, the news about the break up has probably spread? Myri hasn't slept in her room with Finnick in several days now. Spike and Buffy definitely know. So Elena might have picked up on it.]

[notaroundme]

You've always been yourself, Myri. But I know what you mean. Probably more than anyone.

[Being the...shapechanger and all.

She's heard, yes, but just bringing it up is...awkward. Still, she should really check in, because she doesn't think Myri will talk about it on her own.]

Are you...okay? I've been worried about you.

[witchwoman]

I'm... I don't know. Sometimes I am? Some days I get up and I feel like it's going to get easier. And others it's hard to even know what to do with myself.

[She looks down at her hands.]

There's no... there's not a chance to stop thinking about it, because he's here, even if he's hardly ever conscious. [An exaggeration but she's hurting okay?] But at the same time, there's so many more important things to think about, so why can't I stop feeling sorry for myself?

[notaroundme]

That's...normal, I think.

[It sounds like it would be, anyway. Elena doesn't have any memory of her previous breakups, unfortunately, so she can only go with her gut.

As for the exaggeration? Totally allowed. Elena is mad at Finnick for more than a few reasons.]

You're allowed to be sad, Myri. No matter what else is going on, it doesn't mean that you can just shut it off.

[witchwoman]

Shouldn't I, though? I get so lost in my emotions, in the emotions of others... It never does anyone any good.

[notaroundme]

You think everyone else here doesn't have their own things going on? They're just hiding it. You wear your emotions on your sleeve, Myri. It's who you are.

[She frowns lightly, even more worried.]

Everyone's just...dealing with things differently.

[witchwoman]

Who I am. [She repeats and nods, looking down.] But maybe not who I can become. We're meant to grow as Knights, even after promotion, it never stops. But I feel like I've... stopped.

[notaroundme]

I think most of the people here need to grow to be more like you, not the other way around.

[Including her.]

[witchwoman]

I don't know about that. It's the differences that make us stronger, usually. But things have gone a bit too extreme lately.

[notaroundme]

Then don't worry about needing to change too much.

[You're...kind of proving her point either way, Myri.]

We need their strength. And we need your empathy.

[witchwoman]

[Logical points rarely make a difference when you're emotional. She smiles sadly and nods, though.]

Perhaps you're right. [She doesn't want to talk to Elena about how alone she feels, how even when she's surrounded by people that care, she cannot help but feel so isolated. This place reminds her of all the things she feels as if she's done wrong. But she tries to swallow that deep enough so that Elena might now see. (Bluff 20 total).]

[notaroundme]

[Sorry, Myri, but apparently Elena knows you better than you think. (Sense Motive 24).]

You know, you've sat here and listened to all the times I was insecure and thought I was a step short of a monster. You can talk to me, too.

[witchwoman]

[Her face falls slightly. She doesn't want to lie to her squire, doesn't want to hide things from her.]

I don't know what to say, honestly. I lost the man I love but he's here all the time and I don't know how I'm supposed to go on.

[notaroundme]

You didn't lose him. He's still here, Myri. It's just a matter of if it's something you think is worth fighting for.

If it's not, then that's okay too.

[witchwoman]

I love him, Elena. Of course he's worth fighting for, but... I don't think he wants to be fought for. He only wants to be left alone.

[notaroundme]

What he wants is for his problems to go away.

[And some people dealt with that the wrong way.]

I highly doubt he doesn't want you anymore. Everyone wants to be fought for, they just don't always know how to show it the right way. It's up to you to decide if continuing to try is doing you more harm than good or not.

[witchwoman]

I'm tired of fighting. [Her voice is so, so quiet.] He doesn't want me, Elena. He let me go. Everyone wants to be fought for? He couldn't even roll over in bed when I left. Why should I do all the fighting? I'm tired. I love him but I'm tired of being the only one who cares.

[notaroundme]

Then it's not worth it. You're amazing, Myri, and if he's not willing to make sacrifices? Then you're better off without him.

[And now she's super pissed at Finnick because who the hell does that?]

[witchwoman]

[She shakes her head, smiling sadly.]

I'm not so certain. We were better together, but we haven't been together in quite some time.

[notaroundme]

[She's not going to keep disagreeing with her, so instead she's just going to hug her tightly.]

I'm sorry, Myri.

[witchwoman]

[She's just in a contrary mood, determined to be sad while also being determined to not be? It's strange and she doesn't understand her own emotions. So the moment Elena's arms wrap around her, she feels tears spring to her eyes.]

Thank you. [She says muffled as she buries her face into her squire's shoulder.]