nyc --> london ♔ and as the vision fades | i'll say i was blinded by your eyes

[postergirl]

♬ It Happens All the Time - Depeche Mode

WHO || Failboat, Des, Rafael, Isabella, Burt, and more~ [closed]
WHAT || The Knights finally say their goodbyes and head back to the castle
WHERE || NYC hotel; flight to London; London, England
WHEN || March 16th
HOW || Actionspam or prose

What was supposed to be a night to unwind wound up with a confrontation between Failboat and Keijen Blade that didn't exactly go the way the team was hoping for. However, in the process, they at least managed to get Isabella back and extract Dumage from her long term undercover assignment.

The remainder of the night is spent back at the hotel, recuperating, in order to catch the flight back to London the next morning. This also means saying goodbye to those who will be going back to Chicago: Isabella, Burt, and Rafael.

Comments

[nothingsodivine]

It won't kill you to try, Violet, but it will kill you if you don't.

[graveflowers]

Do you really think I'm unaware of what's going to happen to me? Because, I'm well aware, thank you. I have been well aware this is going to kill me for nine months, Desmond, it hasn't escaped my notice the way it's escaped everyone else's. It's not going to kill me, I am. So fuck you for acting like I'm not trying, you self-centered piece of shit. The fact that I'm still alive is proof.

[nothingsodivine]

[Des's eyes burn very cold for a second.]

Right. You're trying. And having a solution right here doesn't even elate you a bit, because you're so goddamned optimistic you have to hold it in. You think I don't know what that looks like?

Do you really think they don't notice? They didn't know what to do. They're scared. You're scared. We are all scared. Pretending like no one gives a shit and you don't give a shit about them is no way to live. It's how I live and I've been reliably informed it doesn't make you any happier. I might be a self-centered piece of shit, but you're not, so act like it. Jade said it would work- if you don't trust me, then trust her.

[graveflowers]

I can't. I don't pretend I don't give a shit about them, they're the only reason I'm still here. [ her eyes find finnick and elena unerringly before she looks back at des. ] But I can't just be happy. Excitement isn't just going to spontaneously happen. Let me explain this so you can understand -- when my mother makes her descent into Hades every winter to spend four months with her husband, her children get fucked because the divine part of us takes the trip with her. Effectively, part of our souls spend four months in the Underworld. I can't be happy or elated right now, because I'm physically incapable of it right now, which is awful because I have things I should be unbelievably happy about but it's not there. [ she licks her lips, swallowing, and she looks really upset for a minute because she's pretty sure luthir can still hear them wherever he is. and he is what she should be unbelievably happy about 24/7. ] Des, I'm not even sad. Or scared. It's just nothingness.

[nothingsodivine]

[see this is why you explain these things to people, so he doesn't say things that are... you know, rude and uncouth. Des is silent for a bit and then he sighs.]

Well, spring's around the corner and you'll have something else to be happy about when you can feel again. [He shoves the paper at her.] Talk to the O'Keefes. Go to Nick. There's no sense in you fading away.

[graveflowers]

[ she's 100% sure spring isn't going to make anything better? she can't mourn jade properly because she keeps reliving it so she can't put it behind her and move on, she is stuck in a feedback loop. maybe spring will help her cope better, but she's not going to be able to just flip a switch and be better. no matter how much she wants to be so myri can stop feeling her pain and luthir can have the fiancé he actually deserves.

which is why she takes the paper and just shrugs. ]