nepotism: (cuz i like some suffering)
Fredrick Jr. ([personal profile] nepotism) wrote in [community profile] knightsoflegend2014-09-02 07:05 pm

debriefing ♔ in the emptiness there's a solution | just look within yourself for absolution



♬ locking up the sun
- poets of the fall

WHO || Wynn, Buffy, Myri, Finnick, Spike, Gar, Archer, Des, Vi, Rafael, Fred Jr., Dumage, Mark, Rocket, open! [Closed]
WHAT || Andres Mission Debrief & Aftermath
WHERE || Knights HQ, lobby etc.
WHEN || September 18th [forward dated*]
HOW || Actionspam. Single thread, don't worry about maintaining tagging order.


There are plenty of missions that return to the castle a success - most of them, even. The defeated air of the solemn group that returns from their diplomatic mission to Andres Isle to hear the demands of dictator Dimitris Sarandis makes it quite clear that this wasn't one of those.

Starting with Sarandis' actual demands - for all Knights to withdraw from Andres under penalty of death, or for Wynn to offer his own head in return for Thomas' safe return - and ending with the unexpected, disturbing confession from Kat that she intended to stay behind on the island because she had "fallen in love with" the dictator, the events of the island made it very clear that Sarandis was cannily playing his hand to get the Knights where he wanted them.

Fred Jr. shoves open the doors with his unnatural strength, stalking in ahead of the group into the lobby. Whoever's on desk duty isn't going to have to roll a high wisdom check to see that these people are pissed... and distraught... and a myriad of other emotions on the bad end of the scale.

*I am changing the date of the briefing log and Andres log/live session to have taken place in September, to avoid us being in backdated hell forever, and to allow for a September squiring ceremony before apps are closed. Carry on... in the future!
everyredcent: (build my love in the things i say)

[personal profile] everyredcent 2014-10-22 01:02 am (UTC)(link)
Sorry? [ he repeats the word with evident surprise, although it seems of the pleasant variety. ] For?
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[personal profile] socialgraces 2014-10-22 01:15 am (UTC)(link)
It's all quite... embarrassing, to say the least. I suppose I felt an apology was in order for making you put up with all my lamenting these past few months, only to just now end things.

I believed you, respected your advice, and I trust you, implicitly. It was only my own insecurities and cowardice that kept me holding on to such a sham of a relationship, when I should have been pouring my energy into something with the potential to be much more... fulfilling. [ although she doesn't specify what that fulfilling something may be, it's on that word that she finally raises her gaze to his again ]
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[personal profile] everyredcent 2014-10-22 01:24 am (UTC)(link)
You're not a coward, Francesca. I'd gladly accuse him of such, but not you.
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[personal profile] socialgraces 2014-10-22 01:42 am (UTC)(link)
Thank you, Christos. [ she offers him a small smile, because that really means a lot, but she's not really in the smiling mood, at the moment ] I want to believe that, and now's the time I truly need to focus on staying strong, and not allowing my insecurities to get the best of me, again.

I believe he felt - or still does feel - some sort of entitlement to me because he's the only person I've ever been with... romantically, a fact I only shared with him to emphasize the trust I had placed in him, and instead he chose to interpret it as a matter of some perverse privilege.
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[personal profile] everyredcent 2014-10-22 01:53 am (UTC)(link)
Val'drin's a collector by trade, as well as personality. You can't pretend that aspect of himself doesn't leak into the way he views everything in the world around him.
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[personal profile] socialgraces 2014-10-22 02:41 am (UTC)(link)
I also can't deny it was rather flattering, at first, until I realized his infatuation was less out of love and respect, and more an practice in mere possession. He only wanted me to have me, not to make me happy, or to protect or support me.
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[personal profile] everyredcent 2014-10-24 04:01 pm (UTC)(link)
You certainly deserve better.
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[personal profile] socialgraces 2014-10-24 05:22 pm (UTC)(link)
[ she gives him a small smile because that means a lot ] I hope so.

I suppose now's the time to focus on myself - recuperate, if you will - and get my life back in order. Luckily, I know it shan't take fifty some year this time. [ she smirks a bit, purposefully catching his eye as she continues ] I'm much more confident this time around, and much more certain of what I want... What I need, and what will make me truly happy.
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[personal profile] everyredcent 2014-10-24 05:42 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm certainly pleased to hear it. It should give you something to hold onto through... what's to come. [ stupid andres ]
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[personal profile] socialgraces 2014-10-25 02:50 am (UTC)(link)
Mm. [ she drains the rest of her glass, slowly licking her lips as she stares down into it. suppose a fort save would be in order now. glad she rolled a 3, so a 12 in total, the alcohol visibly loosening her tongue. ] What do you hold onto... through everything, really? What do you hope for?
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[personal profile] everyredcent 2014-10-25 03:40 pm (UTC)(link)
[ meanwhile christos rolls a 19... ] I don't know that I've ever quite thought of it in that way before.

... Purpose, I suppose.
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[personal profile] socialgraces 2014-10-29 09:21 pm (UTC)(link)
[ ♬ longing to belong - eddie vedder

nodding slowly, unconsciously, at his words, she leans in, undeniably curious. she understands precisely how he feels, regardless how he answers her next question. ]


Do you hold fast to purpose already found here, or do you hope some greater purpose will present itself to you, make some sense of your life?
everyredcent: (picture me)

[personal profile] everyredcent 2014-11-04 04:53 am (UTC)(link)
[ he shifts, uncomfortable ] I think finding purpose to move forward one day at a time seems quite enough for... now.
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[personal profile] socialgraces 2014-11-04 05:43 am (UTC)(link)
[ she fidgets, as well, his discomfort palpable, and finally settles back against the sofa's arm rest, tucking her feet beneath her once again. ]

For... now. [ she echoes his words, thoughtfully ] Yes, I suppose you're right. That can sometimes be quite a feat, in and of itself.
everyredcent: (i always wanted to return)

[personal profile] everyredcent 2014-11-05 01:43 am (UTC)(link)
Some things make it easier. Dark times such as these, for example. It's quite clear what must be done.