CHAPTER FOUR ♔ does it run in your blood to betray the ones you love

[coldheritage]

♬ The Truth - Nonpoint

WHO || Failboat, Rafael, Isabella, Nadia  [Closed]
WHAT || After an exciting Grammy night, the Knights meet up with Nadia to hear what she has to say
WHERE || Staples Center, LA -->  Warehouse
WHEN || Feb 8th, 2015  [back dated]
HOW || Actionspam

[  The Knights' mission to stop the signal and prevent Draken's cult from spreading whatever subliminal message  was lurking beneath Keijen Blade's performance was a success.  It didn't come without its bumps in the road, however:  Alexander Anderson showed up, and the Knights ran afoul of the Mind Master.    Buffy nearly died fighting Anderson, but in the end, he was defeated, beheaded, and hopefully put to death forever.   Finnick, though, found himself thrust into a mental illusion that convinced him he might still be in the Hunger Games, and left him uncertain about whether any of his life here was real.  

Another surprise came in the form of an announcement by Nadia Reichenov, an artist working with Crombe and company, that she was changing her band name and taking things in a 'new direction'.   This direction was perhaps revealed when after her performance, she approached the Knights in Rafael's dressing room - and handed them the necklace that connects her to the Nightmare God Malaak'a, saying she was willing to tell them everything.  ]

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[graveflowers]

Well. [ she chews on her bottom lip, abruptly shifting off her knees to sit again. ] We're best friends. I mean, for me we are. [ clearly not the same atm. ] And I don't really know you, I guess.

[65]

I remember. I remember that. I remember everything. But it doesn't ... it's just a dream. [he stares down at his hands, making motions like he's tying invisible knots.] You're not real.

[graveflowers]

[ silent for a long while, vi pushes to her feet and slips out of the room. she comes back a few moments later with the length of rope she learned to tie knots with and hands it to him. ]

I'm real for right now.

[65]

[he doesn't shy away from the shoelace (bc i'm like 85 percent sure it actually was a shoelace ok) like he did the food, just takes it and gets to his knot-tying coping mechanism while explaining some more of his sad miserable life.] I was 14 the first time.

[graveflowers]

[ well, he's not fourteen now. but since he said first time, she doesn't gently remind him of that. ]

The first time?

[65]

[still not looking at her] Usually that's it. If you play, and you win, your name is taken out. But for the last one, they only drew victors' names. And then — I thought I was here, but —

[graveflowers]

[ her eyebrows knit together, frown growing. ]

Victors. [ the moment when she realizes she accidentally named her child after her best friend and didn't even realize. ] You may have gone in and then just come here. [ this time she is firmer and clearer in her resolve. ]

[65]

No, I went back. I woke up.

[graveflowers]

Or, alternately, you were fucked over by the Mind Master. [ or that. ]

[65]

Every second I was there felt more real than the three years I've been here.

[graveflowers]

That doesn't mean this isn't real, too. That's what she does, that's why she's called the Mind Master. She convinced the entire world that Crombe was Chad. She can -- [ she trails off, almost as if she's resigned herself to the fact that she can't fix this. the mind master broke a part of finnick that none of them can fix except finnick himself and he's had too much trauma to manage it, or care.

with a heavy sigh, she slumps down next to him. ] I'm sorry.

[65]

[he goes back to quietly tying and untying knots in his shoelace bc that's a comforting, grounding gesture and doesn't involve reliving all his trauma.]

[graveflowers]

[ they can just sit quietly next to each other for a long while. until vi turns on the tv to abc family because it's grammy's weekend so of course harry potter is on. and it's the sixth movie, so they get to enjoy harry's pincers pantomime. ]

[65]

[finnick glances up occasionally and even cracks a smile at shit like the pincers pantomime, but he still doesn't seem that into it. sobs.]

[graveflowers]

[ vi isn't even into it, which says something. dumbledore dies and she sheds a single manly tear, brushing her cheeks absently. spoilers, she's not crying about dumbledore. ]

What do you want to do?

[65]

About ... ?

[graveflowers]

Everything.

[ she assumes they're just going to keep watching hp, so that's not a choice ok. ]

[65]

[he mutters "i dunno" and keeps picking at his shoelace.]

[graveflowers]

[ that won't do. ]

What if you don't wake up, what if this is it?

[65]

[no talking. just picking at his shoelace.]

[graveflowers]

[ ♪ sunday morning -- merriment ]

Can you-- [ whatever was about to follow that gets cut off, vi twisting her ring around her finger. trying not to take any of this personally is near impossible because finnick is her best friend, her fish. if myri suddenly started telling her she wasn't real, she would be just as heartbroken. they were the first family she had here, they'd been through everything with her -- including losing luthir -- and now she can feel finnick slipping away from her.

part of her wants to shake him or slap him, but unlike with kat's potion induced psychosis, she doesn't think that would do anything except upset finnick more. he fought to the death, he doesn't exactly need more violence in his life. and she had done the math: he had to kill twenty three other people or watch them die, in order to survive.

what are you even supposed to do when your best friend is so broken that he thinks you're a fiction? cry, presumably, since that's what vi wants to do. ]

Are you always going to be waiting to wake up?

[65]

[he's completely quiet for a long time, until he decided on the words he wants to use and forces them out, still while not looking at her:] A pretty lie is still a lie. It's just going to hurt that much more when I wake up and it's all — you're not —

[graveflowers]

[ she can't fight the tears this time, streaking down her cheeks. ]

But what about us?

[65]

I'm sorry, Violet. I'm sorry.

[graveflowers]

[ ♪ in the end -- snow patrol

"i'm sorry" feels like a nail in the coffin. a coffin she didn't realize was being built around her friendship and family. if she is this gutted by an apology, she can't imagine how myri will feel.

well, she can imagine, but it's not as if luthir left her willingly.

she tries to keep calm, keep her voice low, keep from bursting into hysterics, keep from startling him and ruining the tiny calm they've managed to achieve within all this chaos and confusion. the mission was supposed to be a success; anderson died and they all survived, but at this cost? she'd rather keep fighting anderson, she would rather be in danger every single day of her life, than watch her best friend leave the delicate family they had all built together.

because that's what an apology meant. ]

What are you going to do?