[something clouds over in Des's brown eyes.] Oh I know, and I won't forget it. As much as I hate every situation that's happened to me since I started this, I can't... wish they never happened. Too much has come out of each one. [he seems pretty unhappy to be admitting that.] I'm glad the whole picture is coming together, though. Getting your shit together in the middle of a clusterfuck that keeps getting worse is bullshit.