knightsoflegend | krozna ♔ just remember that you're still alive

WHO || Failboat, Various Krozna peeps, family members of Failboat [closed]
WHAT || Reunions and preparation for Egypt
WHERE || Krozna, Russia
WHEN || Winter through Summar 2018
HOW || Actionspam or prose

Rescuing Rafael could have gone much worse... And then did, when Rafael, desperate to feel alive and free again, got himself into a car accident. He came out of it alright, but injured, and they headed back on a plane after a whirlwind wedding had happened the same night between Dean and Rose, which Elena and the fiendish version of Sam had dropped in on - as well as Bobby Singer. After the madness of that night, Jack sent word back to them that if they had any family that they wished to keep safe, they could bring them back to Krozna. Rafael and Isabella insisted on picking up Giorgio, Nellethiel, and their children, Giulia and Pietro. Alainn picked up quite a bit of family as well - her adoptive parents and siblings from Ireland. They return to Krozna together, where everyone can get acquainted and recover from the ordeal of their close calls in New Orleans before pressing forward. There would be months for them to train, and the pace of life in Krozna to settle in, far from the chaos of the rest of the world.

The date is now quickly approaching for the upcoming meeting at the "Darkhouse" where they hope to acquire more leads about the dagger that was used by Blade in the ritual to kill his father, Malaak'a.

This log covers all social things for Failboat between the first social log and the Darkhouse (months worth of time skip).

Flat | Top-Level Comments Only

... Have you been feeling as if you aren't alone in there? Intrusive thoughts? Feelings out of nowhere?

Honestly? All if this is just super weird.

[None of this really feels like her own, and while sometimes her thoughts feel like hers, this is the kind of thing that has a way of drastically altering your worldview.]

I haven't been in this body long enough to not feel like a visitor anyway, so while I don't think I've had any intrusive thoughts, all feelings are a little out of nowhere right now.

I can certainly check if you think it will give you some peace of mind - but there's always a possibility that it won't. Are you ready for that?

[She nods.]

I need to know, for better or worse. If she is there, at least I can be aware of it if those intrusive thoughts and feelings pop up.

[And she can hopefully work towards finding her a way to ... resolve this somehow.]

Alright. You're going to feel me... in your mind. I need you to let me in.

[She nods and closes her eyes, doing her best to just relax and open herself up to whatever probing Tia needs to do.]

[ her hands light gently on felicity's temples, and she closes her own. it's a presence, suddenly, in her mind, one that announces itself and invites her memories to the surfaces of her first moments waking up, summoning up images of the family that felicity had spoken to, and searching for any signs of a reaction anywhere else in her mind - a dual consciousness. it does, however, force felicity to relive those moments, and the pained expression on the faces of those she had so disappointed ]

[Yeah, that isn't her favorite. The guilt from those conversations with Julia's twin is very present as confusion turns to sadness to anger. She wishes that she could wave a magic wand and make this better if it meant that both she and Julia got to live, but the world doesn't work that way. It never has.]

[ finally, she withdraws and the images fade. she shakes her head a bit ]

That was... certainly unpleasant.

Yeah.

[That's an understatement, and one hand comes up to rub the back of her neck.]

Definitely my number one of least favorite morning after experiences.

Do you think they're going to keep looking for you? It... felt that way.

I don't know.

[She shrugs as she leans back against the couch.]

I would love to say that I was convincing enough to get him to stay away, but ... she was his twin. I think he knows I'm not his sister, but that likely wouldn't stop him from trying to find a way to fix her.

Well, if there's one thing I can assure you of ... she's not in there. Convincing them might not be so easy, however.

[The relief rolls through her almost immediately, slumping her shoulders and crossing her face without any effort made to hold it back. Julia's family, she could contend with. She's good at disappearing and staying out of the public eye. She'll never give them a reason to know where she is.

She can do anything, so long as Julia doesn't have to suffer by being trapped in here with her.]

That I can handle. I'm good at disappearing and sometimes I'm even good at persuading. I just ... she deserved better than being trapped in here with me.

What were you going to do if the news had been different?

No idea.

[The way she says it has a bit of a laugh to it, almost as though she might be able to form a plan that would actually be somewhat ethical.]

My first thought was ... I'd have to find a way to help her move on. Stop being trapped here with me and go ... to wherever anyone goes after this. Heaven, Hell, I don't know anymore. I was never particularly religious in the first place, but apparently these are things I need to consider now.

[She then swallows as she leans back against the couch.]

But then I actually think about it for more than two minutes and it's like ... I'm the one hijacking her body. I'm the intruder, not her. What kind of asshole am I that I'm thinking about evicting someone from their own body just so I can stick around a little while longer. Problem is, I'm not exactly ready to die either so ...

[She shrugs.]

No idea. No clue how I'd go about resolving this, so ... I'm mostly just glad I don't have to think about it anymore.

I don't blame you one bit. [ her tone is quiet, and it clearly applies to both her assessment of the situation, and her feelings of relief now ]

It's instinctual, wanting to survive. It's not something that people can easily override.

[She nods because that much is the truth.]

Doubly so when it's already happened to you once. I know it's something that happens to everyone, but it really sucks.

krozna ♔ just remember that you're still alive

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