open ♔ november/december socialization

[wynn]

WHO || Everyone! [ota]
WHAT || Shenanigans.
WHERE || Anywhere in the castle, surrounding environs, London, Andres Isle, etc!
WHEN || November & December [backdated]
HOW || Actionspam

[ The castle can be a happening place, even on more mundane days. This log is for random interactions over the course of November and December.

You are encouraged to start your own threads and tag around, and feel free to threadjack into any on-going threads that aren't specified as 'closed' in the subject lines since people can enter into rooms even in the middle of what's going on. WE ARE BIG ON THREAD-JACKING HERE. You can also specify 'single thread', meaning you want only one response for all participants, rather than multi-thread, where a number of different scenes/threads can be done as replies to the top prompt.]

On this log:
Wynn & Section Heads @ Andres/London
Cheryl @ Reception desk
Sam @ Various
Elena @ Andres/London
Drax @ Dragon's Hide Wing
Des @ Pub / Castle
Paige @ Caste Grounds
Grimrot @ the Library
Vi @ Andres
Matt @ Andres/London
Alisha @ bars in London
Cora @ Library/ Castle Grounds
Will @ Castle pond / Hoard wing/ Firing range / Castle grounds
Malina @ Dragon's Fire wing/ kitchen/ bar / castle grounds
Alainn @ Dragon's Fire library / kitchen / Andres
Jordan @ Andres/ London
Sylar @ Kitchen
Logan @ Castle Bars / London
Faith L @ London / kitchen / training room / castle grounds
Dean @ Rose's room / bars / armory / training room/ firing range / kitchen
Rose @ Andres / armory / training room / bedroom
Des & Buffy | Closed
Thea @ Training Room / Castle grounds / kitchen / TV rooms / bars
Sam & Buffy | Closed
Alex @ Firing Range / Airfield / Room / Garage
Failboat @ Breakfast
Alice @ Andres/ London
Sweets @ Dragon's Light Wing
Lydia @ Medical / Training room / etc

Comments

[byrned]

[ He looks a bit stricken at that. He had no idea, but then his family don't really keep him up on what's going on at home, even with the people they do get on with, forget the ones they don't. ]

Fuck I'm sorry, El.

[ His arm reaches out and pulls her up against him. Tough shit, she's getting hugged. ]

I had no idea.

[sorceresslite]

Y'don't need to apologize. [ because it feels like an apology. she allows herself to be comforted though, which is rare for her, but matt was such a staple of her childhood, it just comes natural. ] It was a wee funeral, just me and Finn and Da and then just me and Finn. The mangy cat that lived in the back garden. Pretty sure it's immortal by now or it's really got nine lives because the beast's been alive since before I was even born.

[byrned]

You know if I'd known I'd have been there, right? Fuck I wish I'd known.

[ It makes him realise just how cut off from his entire life at home he'd become for so many reasons. ]

Suppose you didn't hear what happened with me then? [ He ventures that a little, but sort of nervously too. ]

[sorceresslite]

Not really? Mum said you went away to college. Not much of a surprise considering... [ considering his dad. :| ella bristles just thinking of the man, lips pressing into a line. ]

[byrned]

[ He gives a bit of a nod towards her. She's one of the very few people that knew what went on, never wanting to tell people the truth. ]

Yeah. Yeah got my degree... [ there's clearly something else there. He doesn't talk about what happened, but he sort of feels like she should know. ]

[sorceresslite]

[ she's rubbish at sense motive, but she can tell there was something unsaid (17) and she looks at him expectantly. ]

And...?

[byrned]

You seriously didn't hear anything? About Nate? About what I did?

[ He thought this would have been gossip. Kind of glad to find maybe it wasn't. Or maybe it's just that his family wanted to disown him so much they'd rather not mention it at all. ]

[sorceresslite]

No...? [ but now she is concernicus. ] Mum said you had trouble in school, but I thought it was just so I wouldn't feel like a dunce when I failed one of my classes. I didn't think it was real trouble.

[ if ella's mum knew she wouldn't have told ella or finn, out of some fear that it would cloud their judgement of him before he could properly explain, if ever that came up. she always thought the best in people, whereas ella thought the worst in order to be happily surprised when they didn't turn out to be trash. ]

Who's Nate? What did you do?

[byrned]

[ He feels like maybe he's said too much. Probably better if she doesn't know, right? That way she can't hate him like the rest of his family. Judge him for anything he's done. But then at the same time he's not really been able to talk about it, not with anyone. Well, anybody except the police. ]

He was my flatmate. My best mate. We met at uni. [ he looks about, a bit shifty eyed ]

Long story short [ and missing most of the important detail, it seems ] I put him in hospital. I fucked him up, El.

[sorceresslite]

[ ella listens with rapt attention and while she can't hide that she's shocked, judgement never makes it on to her face. she's not a gentle person. anastacia spent most of her squiring trying to coax the tiny moments out of her. ella is violent and rough and has zero fuse on her temper.

most of her her expression instead is concern, contrarily. ] You okay?

[byrned]

[ It makes him laugh because... nobody ever asked him that. makes him cry too, which he really doesn't do. ]

Fuck you, El. [ but you know, that means thank you and I love you in his weird little language. ]

He was gay. You know? Is gay. And me and him we... well you know. Don't you fucking dare tell anybody.

[sorceresslite]

[ surprise wars with the concern but she nods automatically, ignoring the tears because that is how she copes with feelings. what feelings where? ]

I won't. But... you're not the only one here. [ she winces, unsure if she's saying the right thing but figuring that honesty is tops. gaydar is real. ]

[byrned]

I'm not fucking queer, El. [ his voice is quick and angry and he regrets it straight away. he still isn't doing well with the whole thing, least of all because he's not really had anybody to talk to about it. ]

You know me. Straight as they come.

[sorceresslite]

[ her eyebrows lift, as if to say "the lady doth protest too much, methinks", but she doesn't say anything to the contrary. ]

You know Finn's gay, yeah? Not like Elton, he's not gay as a picnic basket, but he's proper gay. Shags blokes, as one does. Sort of monk, actually, so the shagging might not really happen. But it could, if he weren't such a loser.

[ her head tips, thoughtful. ] You're straight and that's fine, but it's not like I'm not used to it, 's what I'm saying. [ so he can be honest with her, even if he can't be honest with himself. or finn. she will pimp out her brother for talking to. ]

[byrned]

You don't get it, El. You've got no idea.

[ Of course more than anybody, she likely would. Of course he's terrified of even the idea of being gay. If his dad found out he'd probably kill him. He was brought up to be, by all intents and purposes, homophobic. It wasn't until he moved away he started having all of those beliefs challenged. ]

I shouldn't want to fuck guys. It's wrong. You know it is. I mean no offence to Finn. But it isn't right, is it?

[sorceresslite]

[ her forehead wrinkles. it's not like she and finn were raised catholic, or even religious. her parents were from the shadow world, they didn't give a shit about... pretty much anything. if it wasn't hurting anyone, what was the harm?

ella managed to miss the "if it's not hurting anyone" part most of the time, since she takes glee in hurting bad guys. BUT THE UPBRINGING STAYED THE SAME and so ella is genuinely confused by the idea of homophobia. she likely was as a child too, but never really recognized it, raised in a bubble of tolerance. ]

...no, that's complete bollocks. You like who you like and you fuck who you fuck. 's long as everyone is sayin' yes, then it's right.

[byrned]

[ he just gives her a look, a really hard look, because come on she knows his family, she knows the sort of people they surround themselves with. homophobia is pretty much standard chatter at the pub. he'd never really realised just how fucked up that had been until he left Ireland. ]

Oh yeah and can you imagine me saying that to me da? 'Oh by the way I've been sticking my dick in a fella, just thought you'd want to know.'

[ it isn't that simple, he knows that. he more than ever now, especially with his own life taking the turn it had. ]

Started off I used to let guys suck me off. I mean a mouth's a mouth, right?

[sorceresslite]

Well, your da's a fucking racist clicky wrist cunt. I know I'm not meant to speak ill of other people's parents, but it's fucking true. [ she rubs her head, only marginally apologetic for her outburst.

she doesn't need to know the particulars and they gross her out a bit, but she doesn't ask him to stop, sensing he needs to tell someone and ella happens to be the one. ] Sorry, keep going.

[byrned]

[ He almost react to that, almost, because he's been brought up to be fucking terrified of his dad, and yet to treat him like he's some sort of fucking saint.

With a sigh, he goes on. ]

Well he was my flatmate. Gay as a fucking maypole. Artist, you know, the whole nine fucking yards and then another nine on top of that. But he was a good bloke, you know. I mean the best bloke. I split up with Sal and me and Nate... Well fuck I don't know how it happened but it did. He kept it quiet but then I guess he was pissed at me for some shit I'd done or hadn't done and he was going to tell everyone, so I just snapped. I snapped and I tore him to shreds, El. Put him in hospital.

[ And what scares him most? Is the thought he's turning into his dad, the thought he could possibly be truly his father's son. ]

[sorceresslite]

[ ella's lips purse, unsure what's the best thing to say. she settles on nothing, squeezing his knee gently as if to urge him to keep spilling his guts and at least get it all out. ]

[byrned]

I've made a right fuck up. He's okay. I mean, he's alive. But... [ he just shakes his head. ] I'm turning out like him aren't I?

[sorceresslite]

[ oh good, something she does know how to answer! ]

What, no! Matthew, no. [ she turns to face him fully, gathering his hands in hers. ] Not at all. You made a mistake and it was bad, I'm not saying it wasn't, but the fact that you're still upset about it means you're not like him at all. Your dad would be proud about hurtin' a fairy. [ she makes a disdainful face. hates that man. ] He'd probably want to do it again. You aren't, and you don't. God, Matt, you're nothing like your dad at all.

[byrned]

[ Oh she's 'Matthewing' him, things must be serious. He doesn't look at her though, not until she's grabbing his hands and holding him tight. It makes him look at her, stare at her, wanting so very much to believe her. ]

When did you grow up and get so clever?

[sorceresslite]

[ absurdly, that makes her blush, ducking her head. ] I dunno.

[byrned]

Yeah well don't worry, I won't go telling your big secret.