knightsoflegend | open ♔ may castle socialization

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open ♔ may castle socialization

WHO || Everyone! [ota]
WHAT || Shenanigans.
WHERE || Anywhere in the castle, surrounding environs, London, etc!
WHEN || Any time during May/June [ forward dated]
HOW || Actionspam

[ The castle can be a happening place, even on more mundane days. This log is for random interactions over the course of these few months. Because not everyone is into parties, ok.

You are encouraged to start your own threads and tag around, and feel free to threadjack into any on-going threads that aren't specified as 'closed' in the subject lines since people can enter into rooms even in the middle of what's going on. WE ARE BIG ON THREAD-JACKING HERE. You can also specify 'single thread', meaning you want only one response for all participants, rather than multi-thread, where a number of different scenes/threads can be done as replies to the top prompt.]

On this log:
Vi @ the desk
Klaus @ the desk
Maxwell @ the desk
Aurelius @ Dragon's Fire wing
Gar @ the library
Dovan @ 2nd floor pub
Mark @ castle grounds
Lila @ the firing range
Abigail @ library/grounds/kitchen/training rooms
Spike (Kyp) @ people's rooms
Mars @ the library
Sebastian @ front steps
Alaric @ Dragon's Hoard wing
Myri @ cleric's wing, etc.
Spike @ infirmary/kitchen/outside/etc
Elena @ her room
Buffy & Kyp (and Fred) | Closed
Jack @ the cleric's wing
Kyp @ the dungeon
Spike, Buffy, & Helen | Closed
Rose @ various
Lila & Hook | Closed
Han @ the firing range
Brantley & Andrew | Closed
Vi & Des @ the garden
Failboat @ pancake brunch | Closed
Faye @ the library
Alanna @ the firing range
Jaina's induction party
Alex & Abigail | Closed
The Doctor @ the castle grounds
Elena & Helen | Closed
Dumage & Damon | Closed
Lila, Sylar, & Helen | Closed
Damon @ the bar/various

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[She takes a sip of coffee, lets the first bite of ice cream linger in her mouth along with the spoon, if only to procrastinate answering.]

I'm pretty sure if I said I was, you wouldn't believe me, huh.

[Trying to play it off. Failing.]

I would pretend to, if that's what you needed. [ reaching out, she puts her hand on elena's knee, giving it a gentle squeeze so the girl will look at her. ] If you don't want to talk, you don't need to talk, but before you decide let me just mention that after a year of feeling like everything is my fault and going over every what if in my head every night: it does feel better to get it out. It hurts like hell and it's the worst thing, because you have to think about it again, but it's like a poison, sweetie. You have to get it out. It doesn't have to be with me, that's up to you, but you gotta talk to someone.

[This isn't something she can hide forever. She knows that. She'll have to talk about it, and there are only a few people that she knows she can trust with this information.

But it could come back to haunt her, and she can't hide it. Especially not when the other guilty party was just a walk away.]

I slept with Spike the night before my knighting ceremony.

[Hiding herself in her coffee mug now, yep.]

[ oh. oh no. vi can feel the exact moment her heart breaks for elena. it's quickly followed by the exact moment she wants to storm the dungeons and personally castrate kyp with a wooden spoon. one full of splinters. and acid. and probably spiders. sorry, wynn, if you think vi is staying behind now, knowing this, knowing that kyp is in it to win it with dimitris? hell no.

her hand tightens against elena's knee, but she doesn't give anything else away. (will save nat 20, 28 total) there is no trace of pity or blame or disgust on her expression, just a familiar sorrow in her eyes. it's horrifying that elena couldn't match it before, when they were trying to fool kat, but vi knows she would be able to now. ]

I'm sorry, Elena. [ her hand lifts, reaching up to brush elena's hair back. ] But you didn't know. It was not your fault. [ it's all all encompassing assurance, but she mostly means that it isn't elena's fault that kyp took advantage of her. ]

It...would have been a mistake either way. I should have known better.

[It would have been messy and confusing. Now it was just everything awful ever.

But lonely people do dumb things.]

But no, that's on him. Everything else, though? That...I'm not so sure about.

[How much information did he get from her that led to the kidnappings. Probably more than anyone else.]

That is on him, you're right. [ she wants to say it that, yeah, maybe it would have been a mistake with spike, but he wouldn't have been taking advantage of her, at least, not the way kyp was. she refrains because elena seems to want to change the subject and this is elena's venting, vi will go where elena goes. ]

And the rest of it is on him too. Elena, I saw him as Myri every single day and I didn't notice. She is my best friend, in... the entire world. You and Myri, you're my sisters. And I didn't know. None of us did. And it sucks and it's easy to blame ourselves for not knowing, for not being suspicious of the people we love, but we didn't do anything wrong. [ her voice is rising a little from the previous gentle quiet. she's heated. ] Do you know why being evil is so easy? Because they don't feel guilt. We're crippled by it, because we have compassion. All of us, like dumbasses, feel guilty. For not knowing, for spilling our guts, for letting Myri go, for taking our eyes of either of them for more than a second. That's what makes us people. Compassion, guilt, regret, we feel things.

He is wrong -- you're not like him at all. You are a beautiful, incredibly loving, kind girl. You found a family and you've stuck with them through everything, even when we're killing each other. You, Elena Gilbert, are a hero. An amazing, doppelgänger hero person. [ a beat. ] You will never, ever be a monster like that because that's not who you are.

[Exactly. It might have been messy, but she trusted Spike. Clearly, that's partially why Kyp picked him.

He saw right through her the whole time, knew exactly what to say. It made her sick.]

Vi I was in a hotel room with him for months back in Chicago. Most of the knowledge of who to steal and how and why? He probably got it from me. He may have fooled everyone, but he might have even had a chance if I hadn't trusted him.

[And maybe she's not like him. Maybe she never will be. But she's trying to prove it every day and this just made it so much harder to believe it. Had it really been Spike, he probably wouldn't have even tried anything. She'd fallen for Kyp's tricks, and at the time it had felt right and what did that say about her?]

You wanted to know who you were, there's no shame in that. You think if there was a chance the other side has someone like me I wouldn't be there in a heartbeat? If you hadn't trusted him, you wouldn't be able to know the extent of your abilities. That's not wrong. And you need to look at us for ten minutes to see who to get info from. I'm always with Finnick and Myri, Spike and Des are always near Buffy, you and Archer are a hilariously awesome pair. It wouldn't take your knowledge for him to learn that, just a pair of binoculars.

Edited 2014-05-19 02:09 (UTC)

I just...wish it hadn't all backfired in my face. In everyone's face. I look at Spike now and all I can think about is that. And Myri, oh my god Myri.

[She knows, deep down, that what Vi says is true. Elena just wishes it was enough to make her feel better.

She lets out another heavy breath, before she looks down, digging her spoon into the ice cream and sticking it into her mouth. Now if only the cold would numb the rest of her the way it tried to numb her tongue.]

Okay, come'ere. [ scooping up the ice cream, she sets it aside and scoots forward until their knees touch, holding her hands out. ] When I first met Jade, she was feeling a little bit like you might be now. Lost, powerless, confused. But we had a connection. It was because our moms, we were so similar and didn't even know it, but me and you. We have a connection because we're family.

[ she waits for elena to set the coffee down so she can take her hands. ] Spring is my mom's domain. I haven't got much, but I have a little something. Let me give it to you. [ it backfired with jade, but that was because of the necklace. it's not going to backfire with elena. ] Just for a little bit.

[Elena turns to look at her, to listen to the story, because it's nice and different and even though it didn't have a particularly happy ending, it certainly wasn't all bad.

Nothing about Jade was a particularly bad memory, except for that one bit where they failed her.]

Just for a little bit?

[She's not sure what she means, or even all that much about her heritage, but Elena isn't going to give up on trusting people because of one asshole. She refuses that completely.]

[ taking elena's hands, she holds them loosely in her own. ] I know I don't seem like it, but in spring, I have a sort of inexhaustible supply of energy. You can borrow some, to make this all easier to go through.

[ she squeezes elena's hands. ] Part of magic is faith. So all you have to do it have a little faith and trust. Visualize the energy going from me to you. [ her eyes close and she breathes out slowly. she doesn't pray often, if at all but elena deserves a break and to just feel... okay. that's all vi wants and so she prays, silently sending up a plea to jade's mother and her own. vi doesn't know if she can be saved, personally, but if her mom and jade's mom could save elena from this crippling guilt, well...

mom, please.

and if all else fails... at least they'll be zen. ]

[By inexhaustible, Elena has to assume that that means she doesn't need it, but she's still hesitant because if she knows anything about her friends, it's that they can be selfless when they want to be.

But Vi is also offering her something very special, in her opinion. A piece of her that Elena can carry with her, so she might not be so alone.

She has a feeling she'll need that now and soon.

Trust she has, and faith in Vi. Hopefully that's enough.]

[ nothing happens. she wasn't expecting anything to, gods are fickle and hard to reach so violet isn't surprised. she tried, son. but she doesn't want elena to think it was for naught, so after a while of silence she pushes an intense burst of positive energy at elena, cool and soothing like a glossy green leaf. quick boost = + 2 to strength ability score for four rounds, but lbr it's just the feeling of strength that vi is giving her, she doesn't care about the actual enhancement. it's knowing that someone has her back. ]

[That's all that really matters, honestly.

Elena is really lucky to have her friends.

She's not okay right now, and no one expects her to be. But she will be okay, someday. For right now, this is enough to keep her going.

And it sure feels nice.

She leans forward, giving Vi a gentle kiss on the cheek.]

Thank you.

Anytime, kiddo. [ she smiles a little wanly. they've gone through a lot and vi doesn't see an end coming soon, so it's the little things that matter now. even if it's just a little zen moment on the bed and a kiss on the cheek. giving elena's hands a squeeze, she lets go and edges off the bed. spoilers she's actually exhausted by all the magic she's done in the last couple days couple with her usual exhaustion fueled by her nightmares. ] I'm gonna go before I spontaneously eat all your ice cream, but if you need me just call, okay? I'll be there. [ a beat. ] With bells on.

[That actually makes the corner of her mouth perk. Good job, Vi.]

Well, as long as there are bells...

Duh! [ she leans forward and kisses elena on the forehead before turning to leave. ] I love you, doppeldork. [ and poof, out the door. ]

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