open ♔ september castle socialization

[wynn]

WHO || Everyone! [ota]
WHAT || Shenanigans.
WHERE || Anywhere in the castle, surrounding environs, London, etc!
WHEN || First half of September, any time between the September squiring ceremony and the War announcement on September 18th
HOW || Actionspam

[ The castle can be a happening place, even on more mundane days. This log is for random interactions over the course of the first half of the month.    Because not everyone is into parties, ok.

You are encouraged to start your own threads and tag around, and feel free to threadjack into any on-going threads that aren't specified as 'closed' in the subject lines since people can enter into rooms even in the middle of what's going on. WE ARE BIG ON THREAD-JACKING HERE. You can also specify 'single thread', meaning you want only one response for all participants, rather than multi-thread, where a number of different scenes/threads can be done as replies to the top prompt.]

On this log:
Drax @ the desk
Kate Bishop @ the desk
Sam @ the desk
Henry @ the desk
Kate Bishop @  roof/dining hall/library/grounds/bathrooms/desk/Dragon's Hoard/etc
Abigail @ Movie theater / library /firing range / training room
Francesca & Val'drin | closed
Penelope & Sam @ the woods
Emma Frost @ the library
Spike @ rec room
Lydia, Stiles, Astrid, Adam | closed

Comments

[socialgraces]

[ god. seem a little more annoyed by her existence, why don't ya 8|

also, she does not believe him (sense motive 38, which is probably not enough :c) either way, this won't take long. ] Val'drin, I don't think we should be together anymore.

[valdrin]

[ hahahah well THAT GOT HIS ATTENTION ] ... Beg pardon?

[socialgraces]

I-- [ god. she's just gonna flounder now, unsure of what to say next ] I don't think this is working out. That this is what either of us really want.

[ can she come inside please?? or maybe not, because it'll be much easier to flee from the doorway. god, this was so much easier to do the last time with all the yelling and screaming and probably throwing things 8( ]

[valdrin]

Did something happen? [ he pushes back the chair, getting to his feet, looking absolutely bewildered ] Where is this coming from?

[socialgraces]

Nothing happened. It's just-- I think we want different things. From life... from love.

[valdrin]

Now, now, darling, we've ... we've been over this, time and time again. You're probably tired.

[socialgraces]

Don't patronize me.

You're right, I am tired. I'm so tired of constantly feeling guilty and manipulated and being treated as if my feelings aren't as valid as yours.

[valdrin]

Manipulated? And what praytell, have I been up to that's so manipulative?

[socialgraces]

You must know, I've been trying to end things for a while now, but each time I work up the nerve, you twist my words and exploit my insecurities, and I end up agreeing to give it just one more try. At first, I considered it a compliment, that you were fighting for what we have, for me... But now, it just seems so selfish of you.

If you love, let me go. If I can't be happy here, with you, then let me go to try and find it elsewhere. It's what I'd want for you. It is what I want for you, because I don't really think you're all that happy, either.

[valdrin]

Now wait just one minute. You've agreed as well as I have that it's worth it to keep trying, I haven't put those words in your mouth, or forced you into them.

You want this as much as I do.

[socialgraces]

I don't, Val'drin. I want to want this as much as you do, so very badly, but I just... don't.

I can't... do this to myself, or you, any longer. Please.

[valdrin]

[ he moves towards her immediately, advancing on her as a dark shadow passes across his features ] You can't do this to me. Not after everything.

[socialgraces]

[ she holds her ground as he approaches, her face hardening ] See? This is what I mean. You can be just so selfish!

I need to do this. For me.

[valdrin]

For him. That's what this is about, isn't it? I'm the selfish one, when you're the one who refuses to let go of some idiotic notion of love for someone too foolish and self-centered to ever be with you. When you allow that to sabotage your real chance at happiness.

[socialgraces]

[ she clenches her jaw at his words, her cheek twitching in response. his accusations hit her hard, and not because they're true, but because she's feared the same thing for so many years. however, in her moment of hesitation, it's christos's words of encouragement (ironically enough) hanging in the forefront of her mind that manage to pull her through. ] This is about more than just Christos, Val'drin, and you know as much.

You're right, perhaps I am sabotaging my chance at happiness by holding on to what I feel for him, but no more so than I'd be undermining it by letting things continue on as they are.

Besides, it doesn't seem such a foolish notion as of late.

[cabot]

What in the world has changed, exactly? Since you agreed to try to move past this?

[socialgraces]

I did try, but... well, everything that's developed since that agreement has been rather accidental. [ at least on her part. it's not as if anything happened between her and christos, physically, but emotionally she feels as if they'd taken a major (and quite intimate) step toward... something, and she can't deny she's eager to see where it all may lead. hopeful, almost. ]

[valdrin]

Now you're saying that you accidentally fell out of love with me?

[socialgraces]

I didn't say that.

I was more referring to what happened between-- [ she shakes her head b/c that's a long story he's never going to understand ]

[cabot]

[ he just stares at her as if he's expecting her to relent any moment, awash in a series of guilty emotions, but when she doesn't, he looks more than visibly frustrated. he looks angry. ] I don't know what you expect me to do with this. Do you have any idea what you've put me through? And through all of it I believed, really believed, still believe, that this was worth it.

[socialgraces]

[ his anger surprises her, honestly, as he's not usually one to show his temper. yet, it's impossible for her not react with equal frustration.

she stares him down incredulously. ] What I've put you through?

No, you know what, you're right, I don't have any idea what I've put you through, because you have never deigned to share any of your insecurities with me.

Now's your chance - enlighten me. Tell me all the horrible things I've done to you.

[valdrin]

I shouldn't think they require being spelled out. You consistently mislead me, toy with my heart, and hold yourself back.

[socialgraces]

[ she takes half a step back (possibly because she's going to hit him), her own anger flaring up across her features and tightening her stance ] Are you fucking kidding me?!

I've toyed with you? I'm the one who's misleading? Listen to yourself and tell me again why you think this relationship is any good for either of us.

[valdrin]

You need to calm down, that's what.

[socialgraces]

I don't have to do anything. [ because telling someone to calm down never has the exact opposite effect 8| ] You have no right to tell me what I need, and I owe you nothing, regardless of whatever slights you may accuse me of.

I'm allowed to get angry. I'm allowed to feel, without constant degradation and condescension on your part.