london ♔ held on as tightly as you held onto me

[wynn]

WHO || Everyone and their dog THE SEQUEL 
WHAT || In the aftermath of the attack, the Knights attempt to recover (overflow log)
WHERE || Knights HQ, etc.
WHEN || Dec. 1st-8th, 2015
HOW || Actionspam

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Aftermath top links (for both posts):

Wynn's return | outside the castle
Rafael Giovanni
Zero
Wynn
Operation Save Elena
Steve Rogers
Amara
Colossus Removal Squad
King Marcus Andres
Thea Queen
Dumage Moulet
Vi Reedhym
Astrid Madchen
Wanda Maximoff
Lila Zacharov-Gray
Avaleen
Kenzi Malikov
Frankie Matera
Lance Sweets
Ashley Magnus
Clark Kent
Abbie Mills
Sawyer Kelly
Nick Hawley
Lorne
Gwen Cooper
Alec McDowell
Natasha Romanoff
Groot
Matt Byrne
Alisha Daniels
Sebastian Trevethor
Doyle
Mars Dacey
Stiles Stilinski
Thoster Chatwyn
Willow Rosenberg
The Dennis-Gatewoods
Emma Swan
Skye
Sara Lance & Clint Barton
Gus Harrison
Alanna of Trebond
Deryn Argall
David Levin
Kali's Rez
Lissa's Rez
Rose's Rez
Killian's Rez
Sam Winchester
Mary Margaret Blanchard
Dante Wilder
Will Graham
Shawn Spencer
Alex Karamazov
Auric Gold
Kate Beckett
Winter Villaro
Sam looking for Dean | closed
Han Solo
Sam & Dean | closed
Myri Odair
Cora Hale
Kali
Rose Hathaway
Faye Chamberlain
Dean Winchester
Koraith & Lydia | closed
Neal & Regina | closed
Hellsing, Vi & Buffy | closed
Gold & Hasmed | closed
Desmond Descant 
Spike 
Hook 
Serafina Rez  
Sterling Archer 
Barry Allen & Felicity Smoak 
Des & Rafael | closed   
Elena Gilbert arrival  
Elena Gilbert  
Wynn & Grant | closed

Comments

[beatupgrass]

[Rocket couldn't bring himself to face the fact that Kali had died, because his fears were the same as hers. He hears about rezzes all the time and scoffs at them, because he sincerely doubts a walking hunk of metal and organic bits has a soul that be claimed from whatever weird shithole afterlife allegedly exists in this world.

But Kali came back, and that sends a shock through his system, and after some hesitation, he finally manages to approach her room, knocking on the door.]

I hear you hittin' somethin', kid, so I know you're in there. Open up.

[felidity]

[ even though it's muffled by the closed door, the snap in her tone is clear. ] Don't tell me what to do!

[ she doesn't move from the bag because the door is unlocked, he can let himself in if he wants, she's just not going to do it herself. ]

[beatupgrass]

Good answer!

[he's the last person to get annoyed or cowed by someone being snappish. he jumps up to take care of the door, which takes a minute... because he's short. once he's inside, he leans against the door to shut it back.]

You makin' it okay?

[felidity]

I'm not making anything. [ she's punching a punching bag to death, again, despite knowing it probably worries skye when she gets like this. skye isn't in the room at the moment. ]

[beatupgrass]

It looks like you're makin' short work outta that bag. It's gonna have a hole in it pretty soon.

[felidity]

I rotate it. [ like duh rocket. she doesn't want to have to go and replace it already. ] Why do you sound like Alex when he's upset? You're from space and he's from Brooklyn, New York!

[ too much suddenly doesn't make sense in her tiny little world view, she wants to clarify as many things as possible. ]

[beatupgrass]

'Cause it's how my voicebox translates to English. Flark if I know. [That is a weird question, Kali.] If it makes you feel any better, I'd be takin' all this about the same as you.

[felidity]

[ snapped as she throws an especially devastating punch, ] You don't know how I'm taking this.

[beatupgrass]

[he slumps to the floor.] Like you wanna punch out a god?

[felidity]

I don't believe in god. And you don't know how I feel, no one knows how I feel. [ well, alex knows how she feels because she exploded all over him, but that's not what she means. ] They're my feelings.

[beatupgrass]

All right, all right. [he hits his tiny furry head against the door.] I mean I'd know how it'd feel if it was me, and it would look a lot like that. That's all I'm tryin' to say here. I ain't good with... feelings.

[felidity]

Obviously. [ it's mean, but she can't stop the word spilling out. ]

[beatupgrass]

[in a softer tone than most people would ever believe he's capable of.] I'm tryin', Kali. You're not even the first friend I've ever had come back from the dead, but you're the first one who was... like me that did.

[felidity]

[ she finally softens, expression turning dangerously fragile as she studies the punching bag. ] I'm the first one I know, too.

[beatupgrass]

[he thunks his head against the door again.] I don't even remember the others, but they don't do this shit back on... [no, he's not even gonna say the name of that place] ..back where I'm from. Groot's different. He's a freakin' tree.

[he stares at his hands for a moment.] And I know I got so much borrowed hardware in me that who's to say they're gonna know what to look for when they do all that spiritual crap? How does any of that work, anyway? Souls don't got nametags or "if found, return to this guy" things on 'em.

[felidity]

I don't remember anything, just pain and then I was awake. [ her fingers curl back into fists. ] Still in pain.

[ she knows, intellectually, that solace healed her completely before he even attempted the wild pursuit of resurrecting a moreau, but that didn't register with her brain right away. nor has it yet fully registered if the way she wakes up in the middle of the night feeling flames lick across her skin is any indication. ]

[beatupgrass]

[he runs a hand over his face.] I wish I knew how to help you, kid.

[felidity]

Me too. [ she wishes anyone knew how to help her. maybe she should talk to solace, but she's not sure he really deals with the aftermath of that whole thing. ]

[beatupgrass]

[he flattens his ears against his skull.] You don't wish they'd just left you alone, d'you?

[felidity]

[ ♪ the enemy -- mumford & sons ]

No, otherwise it wouldn't have worked in the first place. [ she sits down where she's standing, bag swinging idly towards her before she lifts a hand to still it, fingers drifting to the bar code on the back of her neck, nails scratching at the mark, adding red lines to the black. ] I wanna be alive, I wanna live. I wanna keep kissing strangers and being a shark pup. But I don't want to feel like this, I don't want to feel like my expiration date has come and gone. It feels like I'm still there, on fire and in pain, all the time, and I'm scared and I hate it.

[beatupgrass]

[he hesitates for a moment and then awkwardly walks over to sit down beside her.] Some shit don't go away no matter how hard we try to move past it. I know that don't make it easier to deal with, but feelings are stupid and not supposed to be easy to deal with. And sometimes I take comfort in that, y'know? 'Cause I could not have any at all, and then I'd just be a dumb animal.

[felidity]

I just want to stop. [ right now she would prefer no emotions, none at all, it certainly seemed like it would be easier to cope. ]

[beatupgrass]

[hnngh. kali you break his black little heart.] Guess you could always go with my old stand-by... Pretend it's okay 'til you forget why it ain't.

[felidity]

I'm not any good at lying. [ she's actually profoundly bad at it. ]

[beatupgrass]

From experience? It's a hell of a lot easier to lie to yourself than it is to other people.

[most of the time.]