knightsoflegend | open ♔ fall/winter socialization log

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open ♔ fall/winter socialization log

WHO || Everyone! [ota]
WHAT || Shenanigans. Sorry that it's covering like half a year. Forgive me. Let us never speak of it again.
WHERE || Anywhere in the castle, surrounding environs, London, Andres, etc!
WHEN || Any time in Fall/Winter 2016
HOW || Actionspam

[ The castle can be a happening place, even on more mundane days. This log is for random interactions over the course of these few months. Because not everyone is into parties, ok. Characters who are not currently squired in may also post, as their characters are living in the castle awaiting their ceremonies. This takes place after the Knights have returned from rescuing Gar in New York City, but before the planned Keijen Blade concert at the beginning of 2017.

You are encouraged to start your own threads and tag around, and feel free to threadjack into any on-going threads that aren't specified as 'closed' in the subject lines since people can enter into rooms even in the middle of what's going on. WE ARE BIG ON THREAD-JACKING HERE. You can also specify 'single thread', meaning you want only one response for all participants, rather than multi-thread, where a number of different scenes/threads can be done as replies to the top prompt.]

On this log:

Section Heads
Failboat Return from NYC | multiple threads
Lance Sweets | Light wing appointments/training area/kitchen/movie rooms
Felicity Braddock | The bar/London/training room/shooting range/library
Kevin Beckman | Front desk
Sark & Sydney | closed
Wynn | everywhere
Jack & Buffy | closed
Hasmed & Solas | closed
Lis'sa (& Gar) | Hoard lab/library
Koraith | common rooms
Christos & Sylar & Katniss | closed
Mark/Alainn/Dana/Michael/Gar | garden
Logan & Scott | TV room
Belle & Gold | closed
Constantine & Zatanna | front lobby
Dante Wilder | Old man bar/training room
Darth Vane | Dungeon
Helen Magnus | Hoard lab/library/bedroom
Jade | Kitchen/training room
Myri | Light wing/training rooms
Lois Lane | London
Alainn O'Rourke | castle

Flat | Top-Level Comments Only

[Man, poor Quinn. Just standing there while Faith has this minor internal conflict over what she really wants to do. It was easy for her to say she wanted to leave when it was just her outside these walls and not face to face with Wynn. Now, she's already talked herself out of leaving and putting herself on as part-time, but when he asks her who she thinks she's holding back - it startles her. Mostly because even though she knows she said the words, but she didn't think she'd have to answer any probing questions about it.

If she had just opened her mouth with the first thing that she thought of when Wynn asked her, she would have said herself. That she's holding herself back.

But she can't say that now. She can't say anything, really. Because she doesn't believe it to be true. She's not really holding anyone back -- or in the way. She's just not there enough for anyone to truly rely on her or think that they need her involved more than anyone else.]

[She shrugs, glancing away from Wynn for a moment.] I shouldn't have said that.

Then why did you? [ again, the question is asked seriously, not harshly. as if he really wants to know. quinn looks between them, but decides to keep his mouth shut for now, folding his arms and waiting for her answer ]

[She wants to deflect her way out of this conversation. To just go back to agreeing to be part time and suggest that Quinn help her out. Really, her plan had been to try and get him to see how great it could be to work with the Knights, but it doesn't seem to be going well for her - so why would she even think to open that up?

She exhales, that small amount of frustration with herself starting to get the better of her patience.]

Because that's what people say when they feel like they're not enough. 'It's not you - it's me. I don't want to hold you back.'

[Her hands clasp together, wringing tightly.] I've never been good with the whole team player thing and now I'm not even good at trying to step back either, apparently.

What is it that has led you to feel that you're not offering enough?

[She really wishes she hadn't started this conversation. She could have just kept up the whole staying away thing. She'd already told Wynn that she was going to take a break. Why did she have to make this an official thing?

Oh right. Because she wanted to see if she could get to work with Quinn on a more regular basis. Try to convince him of the benefits of this place. That was super smart. A great plan.

Anyway, she doesn't know what to say. She also doesn't like talking about this with Quinn right there. It's probably not selling how great this place is. Or maybe it's not selling how awesome she is. That whole illusion being pulled apart.]

How about the fact that I'm not here to offer anything? [She almost wants to throw the truth about that painting in here. To tell him that the reason she knew it'd been stolen was because she stole it. Well, with Quinn. Which wouldn't really sell anyone on Quinn being Knights material. Not that she believes that's going to happen now.]

I've spent more time away from this place than I have here looking to help. I mean, all I am good at is killing things and you've got plenty of people that can do that.

That's not true. [ it's a grudging admission, as if he can't sit there and listen to her sell herself short anymore, but he also recognizes that making wynn's argument here might be likely to send her away from him. ] She's good for a lot more than that.

[ he raises his eyes at wynn now, almost a bit accusing ] Is that what you've been making her think? That all she's good for is being a killer? [ wynn meets his gaze with a level one of his own, not answering, merely looking to faith instead for her response ]

[This is going so horribly wrong. This is why she doesn't like these sort of meetings. Having to explain things isn't her deal.]

That's not -- I mean, it's not as if it's a secret. [She didn't think it was a bad thing, either. She's good at knocking heads around. She ripped an eye-stalk off of a floating thing once! It was awesome.] And I'm on the right side of things this time. [God, she hopes she is.]

It's that desire to do right that is more valuable than your skills as a soldier. We can use you here, but I won't ask you to forsake your desires if something more draws you out into the world. But do not feel as if you have failed anyone.

[She exhales and nods. She still doesn't feel 100% about this whole conversation, but at least she feels like it's headed toward the ending.]

Thank you. [She looks to Wynn.] I was honest about being available if you need me for something.

[ at least that part does. wynn's eyes now sliiide to quinn ] Of course.

I imagine you did not bring this man here against protocol simply to witness this conversation.

God no. [Oh, that was out loud. But still true. Very true. Except, now she feels kinda dumb after everything that just transpired.]

I mean, I brought him to show him what I was a part of. It's the first time I've actually had something worth showing. [She didn't really have much of anything before showing up in this world. Back home she had a crap motel room, a secret loft that was bought and paid for by an insane lizard, and then prison. Of course, really it's more about having someone she actually wants to show these things to more than it is having the things.]

I should've planned it better, though.

An understandable impulse. And while we certainly appreciate the assistance Mr. O'Connor has given us, there are reasons why even our allies are asked to be brought under specific conditions, to protect the location of this castle.

I'm sorry about that. [Though, she's pretty sure a giant tank showing up on their front door isn't keeping this place exactly under wraps, but she understands what he means. She stops at joking about having someone from Mind give him a whammy, because she actually realizes that they might really have people that do that.]

It won't happen again.

I imagine it will not. [ he looks quinn over carefully ] Was there another reason you brought him?

[Sure... want to offer my boyfriend here a job in a way that makes him think that it's the best option for him? Maybe later?]

Right now? Nah, I'm good. [For now... She pauses.] When we're ready to leave, do you need me to do anything? [Metal detector?]

I don't think anything further will be necessary.

Just remember - you are always welcome back through these doors, Sir Lehane.

Thanks. [She says it with a nod, because she does actually appreciate hearing that from Wynn.

Then her and Quinn head back out into the castle proper, and away from the tension she still feels in that room.]

[ they're walking back out, quinn quite silent for awhile, until he finally glances back ] He always like that?

[She exhales a half laugh.] I couldn't tell you. I mean, that's probably the longest I've had to talk to him. It's usually more of a here's the information for your next mission. Then he sets up travel and then we report when we get back. It's not usually conversational.

I've never been... too comfortable around him. There's something about him that just doesn't fit with me. [He does remind her of the Mayor a bit. Providing all these people with places to stay, things to own. Trying to make people feel like they were special.]

There's another guy - Jack. He's more my speed. I've had some good talks with him. [She glances to him.] I bet if I had run into him first he would've told me not to do what I just did.

Seems like a lotta rules around this place. The kind you'd expect in a fancy place like this.

Elbows off the tables, do a background check on all our guests...

[She smirks at him, amused, but what he's saying is true. It is a lot of rules and she doesn't always pay attention to them all. Not because she doesn't care, but because she's never really considered herself a risk to the safety of everyone here. Except for now, when she's bringing a stranger to them into their home. Unannounced.]

Yeah, a bit. I mean, I get it, though. Aside from it being a fancy place -- it's home for a lotta people that don't have anything else. People are looking to feel protected in these walls, so they get a little crazy about who they let in the door.

If they were looking to be safe, why'd they join an outfit like this? Seems like it puts you all right in the fray.

They don't have to get into the fray. [She's never really thought about it. She's also never just asked people why they're there. She just assumes.]

And there's plenty of us to make sure that even if you're in the fray that someone has your back.

You trust these people with your life?

[She's not sure if she should read too much into him saying 'these people' as if they're some weird cult... but she can see how it looks. She also has an issue with trusting people and to group all of them into one group -- to make her say that she trusts every person in this place without even knowing some of them is a lot to ask.]

Some of them. [She says it like it's a question, instead of an answer. She knows that she's supposed to trust them, but she's had times in her life where she was the only one that she could rely on and it's hard to break those habits. She also has been in the middle of some of the people on her team bailing and ending up with the wrong people, trying to make judgments on what information they have at the time and it being the wrong choice. Helen left everyone and Faith had trusted her to be the leader on that mission.]

There are people here that trust me with their life. [And to Faith that's more important. That she can help someone else, because who cares what happens to her in the end.]

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